.Tuesday, August 22, 2006 ' 7:24 PM Y
i don't see anyone else having problems within their grps . for at least most of them . to every problems there are solutions . but why just can't i find solutions to my own problems .. its so devastating . im tired . not just physically . mentally too . sometimes i just wish i could sleep . have a good sleep and don't think of anything . just sleep and prepare for the next day . i can't . i have not been sleeping well these days .. words can't describe how i feel . its like whenever you think that your going to lose a friend , you feel like crying . but nothing comes out in the end . its painful . it hurts . nobody ever understands me . if one day i ever get depression . its no big deal . really . that is what happens when you bottled up everything to yourself . its not that i want to . i can't find anyone suitable to confide with .. *sigh* i didn't want to go over because it'll just reminds me of the past when everything was just fine . it just reminds me of the state we're in now .. i just want time alone . sorry if i offended anyone today or whatever is it like you pple leaving me alone there . its me that choose not to go over .. prelims are coming . 'O' levels are round the corner . i wish i could concentratre . im trying . but my attention span seems so short . if i were to push everything after 'o' then it'll be too late isn't it ? but sometimes .. everything just seems useless since things have not improve at all till now ...