.Friday, August 11, 2006 ' 10:02 PM Y
shall blog before i loses my chance again . beware cos i think its gonna be a long entry . jus in case some of you are wondering why i disappear suddenly from the internet world . lols . my comp is dead for like almost a mth . so yea i cant use it . Yea thats part of it . another is to study of course .. prelims are coming cant afford to lose any time . im back now for awhile la . need to rewind sometimes . ahhhhh ...... i've got alot to say but i dunno where to start from . haiyo . btw , looking for new blogskins so yea .. bear with it x)alrighty .. strangely i should be feeling extremely happy becos i got A1 for my 'o' lvl chinese !!!! ok la , i did when i jus got my results and i even reward myself for that . HAHAhas . thats one . i guess its jus a moment of joy ? or perhaps i've been thinking too much lately .. thats why it actually overwhelm my happiness of getting good results . i dunno .. its jus that i feel something is not right . so weird . PREMONITION . hahas . perhaps im jus too worried about my studies and my friendship stuffs . hais .friends come and go . sometimes quarrel abit after a while you'll be fine . quoted dina (: i guess thats true . but im tired . really really tired . not that i dont want friends . im one who is scared to be lonely , alone . i need my friends . i depend heavily on them . but sometimes it jus makes me ponder ... my friends ... so not reliable . ok perhaps reliable is not a suitable word . pardon me for saying that but i cant keep it to myself anymore . it hurts so badly . on the surface , you guys might think i have alot of friends , actually i dont . i may seems happy , but im not . who ever spared a thought for me . nobody . they jus do their own stuffs , their own way . like hello ? im a human too ? i have feelings too ? for the past 3 yrs . ok perhaps 2 yrs . i've been tolerating ... no matter what you guys do , i'll keep quiet . even though sometimes i think its so not graceful , so disgusting and sometimes i really feel that i shouldnt have known you guys . i didnt complain for whatever you pple did to me . i forgive and forget . but the 2 incidents that happened not long ago makes me ponder even more . i even have the thoughts of breaking it off with you pple . i cant stand it anymore . but the thought of having lesser friends stops me .. so ... yea .. u'll see me in a confused state everytime .. besides .. my other prob is not considered solve yet . still not talking ... but at least i'll msg to ask some stuffs . its a improvement but . its so strange . hais . so not use to it . someone says he's not angry with me but frm how it is .. it seems like someone is still fuming .. HAIYa . dunno la . i think im thinking too much again . oh well , at least i feel much better already (: