.Friday, September 22, 2006 ' 6:44 PM Y
ok. sorry for not updating. just don't feel like it la. actually its im lazy. Anyway, prelims are over. but then again , it means 'O' lvls are coming. don't ask. i totally screwed up everything for prelims. i totally have no confidence in any subjects. im tired , i need a break. i think i'll take a few days off to rest and enjoy myself first. before starting "intensive training" next week onwards. so yesterday was the last paper. after which went for badminton. tiring that lactic acid is working on my muscles. lols. my body ache all over. x) but its still fun. because can exercise and refresh yourself abit. And thats like the only quality time you can spend with some of your friends besides just studying , studying and more studying. well, i was feeling relatively fine yesterday actually. i must say relief as prelims are finally over? but i don't know whats gotten into me today. perhaps mood swings? hahas... feel like crying suddenly and was when i was still in sch. weird ? i know. but i didn't want anyone to see. so yea. i didn't ,fortunately. and i realised i have been lying to myself lately. in a way that when something bad happened . ok , its not bad . but its just something had happened. then i'll be telling myself . ok , everything is just fine. im just thinking too much. i want to look at the postitive side. i want to believe that nothing really happened. its fine. but how long can i deceive myself? from the way it looks it doesn't seems positive or whatever. i really don't know what really is the truth. i only know that the truth is im deceiving myself and its hurting... and i don't understand why some people look at some people in a strange way. not refering to anyone and no offence. i mean why can't one be alone on its own. it doesn't mean that one have to spend quality time ALWAYS with friends. we all need quality time for ourself and on our own too. what's the big deal? don't look at people in a strange way and what. pity them? when you find them alone, without their friends. duhh. like its a crime to be alone?! you don't have to always depend on your friends. right???sigh...oh and lao pa. i updated. happy? lols. [ if you ever sees this. hahas. ]forever is definitely a word too heavy to use on FRIENDSHIP.some things are definitely better enjoyed with a companion.